When I am in a specific social situation (at work) (at a party) (talking to a friend’s family member) I feel as if those that surround me are usually “better” at the social situation. this makes me quiet. I feel like anything i say will be offensive or annoying or dumb, or generally unnatural. and it is very frustrating when I do try to contribute to a social situation because I am trying so hard not to say something that is annoying or offensive or dumb and anything i end up saying is awkward and unnatural. something that tumblr has helped me with is to recognize that other people deal with this too. Even memes like the awkward penguin help me because i feel humanized rather than ostracized (which is what I am normally feeling in a social context). humor is a good way to achieve this, which is why memes are so important, i think.
I love interacting and i love humans and i can do well in some social sitations. sometimes it can be painful though. I do think it helps me to put myself in unfomfortable situations because i begin to learn that i do have natural social skills and i am capable of interacting in a meaningul way. sometimes when i am too focused on saying the right thing I can’t really be a good listener and that just makes the entire situation even more unnerving, because my response is always off. what i need to remember is to slow down and focus on the conversation rather than my anxiety or self-consciousness. i know this will become better as i learn to trust myself more.